My head is spinning...stop the world I wanna get off! My mom is picking up my meds for me. She has no clue that some of them are to be used for bad in case I can't hack it anymore. I think I have plenty now.

I am so nauseous and I can't get the images out of my head right now. I can see it play in my mind over and over and over. As I sat in Rob's office yesterday...I think he was proud of me because I allowed myself to feel the nausea, the fear, the confusion and was able to tell him. But, I don't have that safety here...his office is about the only place I feel safe these days. I rebuild a safe place when the move is over...it's just getting it over!