A New Year...A New Job???

I decided to try and step back into YM. Well, I am making an attempt at any rate. I have said over the past couple years if I went back into FT youth ministry I wanted to be part of a team and not the head honcho/top of the heap/fearless leader, etc. An opportunity has presented itself and my resume has been sent. Now begins the waiting game.

When I saw the blurb for it on YS, it took everything in me to not just send my resume that very second, but I really wanted to talk to Rob first. I wanted to sort out some pros and cons and get his take on my readiness. His first thought was this fits me like a glove. He said his first thoughts were the job is part of a ministry I love and an area of the country I love and have support/friends. He said it’s funny it happens now when I am getting such positive feedback from people at church (there have been some cool comments from people lately) and I have a great 2^nd job. He told me he can’t wait to see what God does with all this…whether or not I end up getting the position.

I’ve said in the past 7 years (almost) since I was a member there and then left (though I think my membership is still there) that I would love to be on staff. Not because of what the church is and who is a part and all the other “perks” that seem to go with that church…but because my time there was incredibly healing (okay…I went to RR in the midst of all that…but still), I grew so much in my walk and I was so content there it was amazing. I see some of that now where I am…but not like it was. It’s not even romanticizing it. Every time I go back it is like I have never left…with some cool changes.

It’s all in God’s hands and as Toni said…wouldn’t it be great if I had to choose between good and good? When I left IN there as very little to be sad about and I wanted out of there. I also knew I had the green light from God, too. This time around…it would be harder. I think of “my” JHers (mainly the 6^th graders) and how I would love to see them grow up into the men and women of God I see glimpses of. Then I look at something that has been a prayer of mine off and on for 5 or 6 years and if the doors fly open…I am ready to step through. If it doesn’t work out I will be bummed…but at least it doesn’t leave me in a place where I don’t want to be.

Rob said something about going back to Greg. If things happen I’ll call him and see if he’ll even take me back. If not, there are other options. But, even before I did that, I think I would “go it alone” for a bit. If anything, I think I would need Greg more for readjusting to So Cal than anything else.

Then there is Dr. D. To be able to see him on a regular basis would be a total blessing. There is also, of course, Disneyland!