Friday, January 04, 2008

Happy Belated New year!

I so need to be better at this in 2008! I used to blog so much more than I do now. I would have blogged over Christmas and the New Year, but I did something to my connection at home (dial up) and didn't have time to fix it.

I was busy with Walking with Dinosaurs from the 26th-31st. It was pretty amazing. I was positioned in a lot of places where I couldn't see the show (base, will call, vom 116), but twice I was placed where I could see the show and saw it from two of the best spots in the building, 107-109 and vom 113 where I was able to see it from the floor. That was amazing. They may not be real...but as the T-Rex was heading my way, it was easy to forget!

Christmas brought a two week break from Rob which I had mixed feelings about. This happens every year, but I still don't like it. Our next to last session for 2007 wasn't a good one and I over reacted (on paper) to some stuff that happened and we couldn't deal with it until yesterday. The problem with that is I can't 100% remember what I was upset about int he first place. I did tell him what I remembered. I was talking about working on out giftedness and I know I was a little "rambly," but I remember he stopped me and said something about me talking about something important. I told him I thought I was and the session kind of went downhill from there. Our last session was better and I was going to try and talk about what had happened, but I couldn't.

Food, while great for almost three months, has kind of crashed and burned. I went back home after house sitting and I absolutely fell flat on my face and it's been hard to get back on track. One thing I realized is I unfortunately crave structure and the last three weeks have had no real structure. Next week begins a somewhat normal schedule/structure for me and I am really hoping that will help me get back on track. I have some really good smoothie recipes (breakfast) and my PB and banana quesedilla. There is always oatmeal! I'm part discouraged I messed up and part ticked that I did it. Rob had told me it made sense to him going from peace and not a whole lot of stress to coming home and back to chaos. I told him that makes it sound like I am making excuses. He said that was a shock to my system. If it continues for a long period of time...then it becomes an excuse. I see Toni soon so I'll get her take on it!


She was okay about it and my plans to get back on track. As we talked I told that even with this slump...the time before this was the longest time outside of treatment I ate regularly. That's actually pretty cool and was encouraging.


Dreaming again said...

Happy New Year!

DaYouthGuy said...

Congrats and happy New Year!

The Thief said...

That is encouraging... blessings on the new year!