Thursday, December 23, 2004

I was reading my blog from this time last year. I said that before, but I went back and re-read it again. In some ways I no longer feel like that person...I can see the dfference from wishing I were dead vs. planning it out as I had.

Not sure if I will ever know why Rob changed his mind last Christmas Eve. My begging and pleading, his willingness to trust my word...not sure if either were good reasons. I have a had a couple friends comment on him not taking it seriously enough. Not sure I agree with it, but as I read my blog and remembered that his colleagues thought he should admit me...maybe they were right. Maybe it would have helped a little. We don't talk about it and I am still under that contract. I am really going to miss him this next week!

1 comment:

Dreaming again said...

I still don't think he took it serious enough. You scared the ever living daylights out of me!

But, what counts, is you are here now, and growing, and changing ... and LIVING. I am grateful. Whether he did the right thing or not, we will never know, but you're here, so in the long run, it's ok.

I still don't know what I'd do without your friendship!

Thank you D ...for everything!