Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Overwhelmed...

I feel overwhelmed, but I am not sure how much of it is reality. I look at deadlines, activities, projects and think there is no way it gets done. But, God always seems to give me the time I need to get it done and no matter how my insides feel...there is that peace that tells me that I can stress all I want...but He is in control and I can rest in that.

I am already in partial VBS mode as well as Nursery refurbishment mode, Jr. High mode and who in the heck can I get to sub this week mode! I also have to remember that neither God nor my SP have told me I need to take everything that happened in our 1:1 and get it done right this second! It's my need to overachieve and to prove my worth that drives me to get it all done (and "perfectly") "right now." I need to let that part play out (and not fight it) while at the same time realize that not getting it all done by tomorrow does not mean I am a loser, underachiever nor a slacker.

Now all I have to do is really believe that even if I don't complete things within 24 hours that is OK.

2 comments:

Brian Vinson said...

I'm with you Deneice, on the overwhelmed part, and there are parts of it that are firm deadlines - and those are all I can see at the moment!

EYouthWNY said...

I know JUST how you feel! all I can do is the best I can do each day (and some days are decidedly better than others!). I'm still working on the mental "It's Ok" part too. I'll let you know if I figure it out.
Bottom line - you're doing fine!