Sigh...

I think, no matter what happens, Children's Ministry will be left in good shape. Whether I am "justifiable" or not...the ball is rolling for good stuff and all the workshops through June are ordered.

Tonight is just one of those nights that I am sick and tired of fighting. I understand that what I see in my perspective...but I have all this evidence that backs up my perspective. I ended up cutting last Thursday and Rob is threatening to terminate me because of the ethics of it all if I don't stop. So much for never going to leave me.

I do feel like a failure...I fail him 2x a week, I'm failing in this job and am reminded in my house how much I fail in big and small ways.

Failure actually keeps me alive.