I'm trying here...I really am...but I got another blow today...a minor one in the "big picture," but one that I wasn't expecting.

Turns out that now that I am hourly instead of salaried I only get paid once a month...at the END of the month. I don't understand why they still couldn't keep me salaried at 1/2 time. This is not what I need right now.

I know I will get through, I know it will all work out...but this is totally the stuff no one wanted me to have to come home and deal with. If I don't eat, don't drive (except to and from work) and cancel Rob I should be able to last until the end of the month.

I wish I knew what God has in mind...because right now I think our visions of my future are on opposite ends of the scale.