Panic!

Last night as my mind was swarming with everything as well as just plain being emotional I had a flipping panic attack!

I couldn't figure it out at first and then I realized, "oh...panic attack!" I am not amused. I hate having them when I am alone...but I was able to pull myself out of it...breathing is a good thing!

I just need to calm down and pretend the next two weeks are not important...that I didn't suffer one of the worst feelings of abandonment by someone (okay...not his fault...but still) during this time and that history does not need to repeat itself May 14th.

Yeah...and elephants (other than Dumbo) fly!