I cannot believe it has been one week since the latest "trauma drama" in my life. Everything is seemingly back to "normal," but I just don't know what that really means. Was mom's attempt simply because of the alcohol and her meds or is this going to lead to yet another attempt?

I tell Rob as selfish as I am being...at least I won't be anyplace my family will find me and have to deal with the 911 call and stuff. I have to be sure no one finds me...not that I have a timeline...I need to rethink since I totally opened up to Rob. Sometimes I wish he would terminate me...it would make it so much easier.