The nightmares have begun. I should say the continual shutting of my eyes and seeing the scene over and over. Thank God for His mercy. I prayed for peace and the ability to sleep and got it. Either that or I did have a full blown panic attack and passed out into sleep...but I remember getting control of my breathing so I don't think so!

It is so hard to focus on anything or to even stay grounded right now. I have a lost of grounding tools on my desk and I have a list of distress tolerance skills in my head...but right now I am not sure I want to tolerate the distress (pros and cons) because it's not fun.